I’m so fucking pissed off.I need to go to my doctor to talk to him about my concern with possibly having adhd,but I can’t ask my mom for a ride because she won’t listen to or believe me.I fucking hate that.yes I fucked up 2 years ago when I used to take adderol and yeah I’m back on them but not as bad as I used to be.it’s not an everyday thing like I used to.I’m cutting back on how many i take a week because of the long term effects,I read all about ADHD,the effects symptoms everything.irritablity,extreme fatigue,mental depression,and insomnia are the long term and all except mental depression because I have NO clue what it means I’ve been dealing with but haven’t noticed that this was the cause of it all.so to lessen these a little I’m cutting down from 3-4/week to 1-2/week max.over a 7 day period (1 week) going down to 1-2 is pretty good for someone that used to take them everyday.I was horrible I used to blow all my money on them and take them 7 days a week so I think 1-2 a week is an improvement.anyways,off topic sorry this is what I mean! I get off topic and distracted too easily! This is exactly why I need to talk to my doctor and figure out if it is in fact ADHD or if Its another form of a attention disorder.my issue is I need a ride to the doctors but I can’t talk to my mom about it because she won’t listen to and believe me.she was the same way when I tryed telling her and talking to her about my anxiety issues and she didn’t believe me until I was getting physically ill and getting An EKG test or the one they do on your heart and getting blood taken because my doctor couldnt explain my symptoms and figure what i was getting sick from.so if i go an tell her I want to go to the doctor and talk to him about testing for ADHD and if i have it or not she will just ignore it and continue to get mad at me for something that I can’t control.I have done research and read about it I’m not just goin to the doctor for the hell of it,I hate doctors but he’s the only one I can talk to about this.I just hate how parents don’t understand or want to believe you when you tell them you honestly think you have something such as adhd.similar to how they acted when I fell down my basement stairs and got a concussion but they didn’t take me to the doctor to check for anything after I just got head injury.like Thanks I could have brain damage or something after hitting my head on cement stairs twice but that’s ok don’t take me to get a MRI or cat scan it anything.so i don’t know who to go to about this cuz I can’t even tell my own mother because she wont believe me.nice to know they care about me.parents are supposed to be there to listen to your problems or concerns but apparently not my parents.and i don’t know how many of my friends I can trust now since one if them told my other two friends ive been taking adderol (even though they knew this) and they went and told my ex friend that blabbed to my mom.so who can you trust now a days? I only have a few TRUE TRUSTWORTHY friends I guess.like i kept all there secrets but no they can go tell people what I’m doing and my personal life? Yeah I know they care but talk to me about it don’t tell other people that you KNOW has a big mouth and will tell my mom.ughh,I need to stop now or I’ll end up writing a book.sorry I know you don’t care about my personal problems but you know what don’t like it? Unfollow me then,doesn’t matter to me.
K, so. i feel like writing this about dahvie vanity. :3 reasons why i love him?
1. hes amazing
2. hes truly beautiful in my opinion c:
3. He saves lives with the music he makes [:
4. he sounds great with or without autotune
5. hes so inspirational.
i could go on all day on how much i…
nice to know im not the only one that keeps the cat in the fridge.
lul just kidding, maybe.
I swear to Baby Jesus kitty, if I find one more hair in my bag of oranges you will be sleeping in the meat drawer.
This fucking cat lmao ah the memories
Wow.just went to get some vicodins and realized that there is now only 3 left.I’ve taken a total of 13 since new years.so 13 out of the 20 that were there to begin with,that means that out of the whole prescription,my dad only took 7.so much for severe backpain.liar.I take them yes,but I usually do when I’m stressed,pissed,in pain,or having trouble sleeping.but I’m not gonna lie and say I took the 13 for those things..I took them for party/recreational purposes,for the good feeling/high I suppose you can call it.keep in mind,though I DID NOT take them all at once.I took them spread over time about 5-10 minutes apart and 5 one day,6 the next,and 2 today.at the time I was taking them (new years eve/new years) I didn’t realize how many I was taking,I was highly intoxicated to say the least..I have NO Idea where I’m going with this rant about vicodin..it started as a simple small discovery and ended a fucking novel.I am currently on vicodin now and am REALLY tired And keep getting distracted,so before I go Any further or fall asleep.goodbye.hope there no typos in this!
—NickyRawrz<——twitter/follow and I’ll follow back :)
I’m getting so annoyed with all the Internet drama on sites such as twitter,facebook,myspace,formspring,and YouTube.people alway leave their ignorant comments telling people that they are going to kill them or calling them whore or slut telling them to kill themselves.then when the people actually do it the people argue saying they didn’t make Them do it when in fact comments as ignorant as that tend to pressure people to do things.so basically what I’m saying is think before you comment something,don’t tell people that you are going to fight them or kill them or even go as far as telling them to kill themselves,cause That would make u a complete inconsiderate asshole.
~thanks,
